2014 Reflections. Changes. Perspectives. Growth.
Two moments…set the tone for 2014. When I was turning 28 years old last year and as the clock struck midnight on January 1, 2014, something told me that this was gonna be an amazing year. And as I’m doing my quarterly reflection and looking upon the past 9 months, I cant help but be so thankful for all that has and has not happened. There is one thing I would like to happen, but that may not happen soon… or can it? Regardless, I can’t help but smile and think back upon this year with gratitude.
Relationships. I was doubtful in God’s provision and took matters into my own hands. I tried online dating for a little less than 2 months, and concluded: I couldn’t do it. Expectations were different. I couldn’t find myself committing to someone that I did not really know. Girl friends… had very rough patches with some friends. But instead of being rude or selfish or prideful about it in its entirety, I really tried to search my heart, motives, and thoughts/ feelings… and tried to conform them to God and His character.
Career. After 2 years of lonnnng waiting (though I look back and see great growth and skills learned), I am finally going to be a bedside nurse. I know it’s gonna have its own set of difficulties and hardships and struggles, but I also know I have chosen this route at this time and I will make the most of it. I am so excited and cant wait to start working with patients at the bedside, but at the same time, I look back and see how my case management experience will change and influence how I look at bedside nursing. Also, I will never forget the relationships I formed there, the people I met.
Faith. One of my new years resolutions was to spend time with God intentionally every day. Though I have not kept that resolution daily, I tried and was more intentional this year than I had been previously. And it has made a difference. I feel close and one with Him.
Home. Mom in Cali? Planning… and I am moving out of MB after 3 yrs! It’s also going to be bittersweet. Regardless, gonna be moving in with a friend, whom I know we will learn a lot from each other. It won’t be rainbows and sunshine all the time, but I know that God is sovereign and it will please God.
Thinker vs. Feeler. I am definitely a feeler. I see the decisions I made this past year and the longings/ desires I had and have. Sometimes I cannot explain things, but I have this gut feeling. And I go with it. And more often than not, it was a good decision. At the same time, I want to learn to think more and make choices out of logic though my gut can tell me one thing over another. Things change. Things grow. Things come afresh. Things reappear. Things remain. Things disappear. But through it all, God is constant and His faithfulness and blessings are ever afresh.
As I continue to live life, I hold on to His promises. “Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.” Romans 4:20