Hannah was here

Reasons why I love SF and am thankful for this city

1. There are many parks and trees as well as buildings. Great mix of green, fresh air, and synthetic tall buildings.

2. There’s always a new restaurant, new event, new park, new biking place, new activity, new people to meet.

3. People (at least most of whom I’ve met) here are genuinely nice and care about the environment and well being of others.

4. There are Christians (my spiritual family) here who love God and also love people, as well as are intellectually competent.

5. The cold weather makes it perfect to wear boots and coats all year long.

Undergraduate school wasn’t useless afterall…

Today at research, the realization and feelings of gratitude over college education hit me today.

My college degree wasn’t worthless afterall: Cognitive science major (current research topic in grad school), applied developmental psychology minor (for when I become a mommy), and  specialization in computing (programming for SASS/ SPSS).  

I am truly thankful for these experiences God has given me to learn, put into practice what I learn, and also move forward and actively use the previous two to make change and make somewhat a little difference I can to the knowledge base.

I realize how POWERFUL WORDS are. Interestingly enough, I had written, “I want to get my PHD in Nursing someday and teach the future nurses of the world!” And about 5 years later, here God has placed me. Everything I have now was given by God. No doubt about it. I am truly grateful.

All these experiences, work, etc. There should be no reason for me to complain one but. God has been faithful. I need to wait patiently… wait… hold up…you know what? Not even wait for Him to “give me more” but to be a good steward of what He has already given me. He has given me much, so much more is demanded. Let’s bear His fruit.

Through it all, I still want to serve Him in His community of believers. Truly thankful for the Christian community here in SF. People who are not ignorant. Who are educated and love the Lord. Who advocate for patients and equal rights. These are the people alongside whom I serve.

It’s been a lonely, tough journey thus far, and with everything (From the good things to te bad things), I should not and cannot complain. Rejoice. And I Will say it again, Rejoice.

Fear of being alone (speaking from my flesh)

I feel like I’ve been alone for so long, and as much as I say I want a partner, I fear that I’ve become too independent.

미안해

I know you may never read this, but I have to say a few things for what it’s worth. 정말 미안해. I’m sorry for hurting you so much. Thank you for teaching me love, patience, commitment. I wouldnt know otherwise. I have made my share of mistakes, had my share of misunderstandings and also had my share of being misunderstood. You have also. 고마워. Now, we are all in a better place. God is faithful. He alone is good. Thanks for our friendship. 열심이 살고있으니까 마음이 평화롭다 :) 화이팅.

A game? Just my game.

자신감 있게 살아야지. For too long I have lived in a shelter, under a rock, in hiding, feeling like poop and ooogley. Why? Cuz one person in my past 2년전에. Can’t let him keep you down 장진선.난 이제 stepping it up. 자신있게. Thank You for this newfound confidence. I got this baby.

Lazy? Lax?

I’ve become too lax in my daily living. Need some accountability physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally. To address this issue: gym research work social life need to be arranged in a timely fashion somehow. How to do this…